The start of a new school year

So Wednesday was the kids first day back to school, and Mara's first day ever! I got up early, and took some of my anti nausea medicines, put some make up on and got dressed. I pulled the kids out of bed which actually didn't take much pulling since they were excited to go to school! ( aka mom is really boring!).

Everyone ate and dressed in record speed ( that wont last long!).  Then it was time for pictures....now my kids have this habit of looking any where else but where I am, so it was a constant struggle "Look at me!, no..me! Not over me...do it while you smile please".....over and over....until my oldest broke down crying over how long it was taking..and that was the end of photos. grrrr children!! Is it to much that mom has a nice picture and you don't all look like I dropped you on your heads as babies!!??


We hopped in the car, and headed over to the school. I felt the tears coming as Jake drove, I held them back. We got there and dropped the boys off at their classes, and took Mara to hers. We saw several friends dropping off their kids and the most I could say was "hi" and a nod-I was ready to cry!

BUT-I didn't! I held it together! We left them there and headed home, and as soon as Jake left for work I sobbed!

We can chalk it up to hormones or the fact that my baby was gone all day, or that my house was so quiet it was weird....but it was hard for me! I *knew* she would be okay, but I didn't *feel* like she would be!

I don't leave my kids with babysitters hardly at all, and if we go some where it's my mom or siblings who watch them! I think I've paid a sitter twice since Eli was born!( Well-except for preschool) So, for me to leave my baby girl at a big school with teachers I didn't really know yet--was really hard! I kept watching the clock, 4 more hours, 3 1/2 hours, 3 hours....I just wanted to pick her up and know that it had all been okay!

Of course when I picked her up she bounced into the car and started telling me how great her day was and that she had made 2 friends, who's name she couldn't remember. She had had a blast, it was only Mom who had the hard day!

When we got home, she and I sat on the couch and cuddled and watched a show and she ate a snack, and my heart was happy. She was okay, she would be okay--but it has still been hard the rest of the week to send her!

The boys of course had a great time being able to see their friends again, they both have the same teacher they had last year so I wasn't worried at all, I knew they would be good!

I start school tomorrow, I think it will be easier for me to have her gone at school while I'm gone-I wont be thinking about it as much! I don't know yet how I'm going to survive school this semester! It's probably going to be harder than I'm preparing for-but I'm going to try my best to get through the whole semester! The anti nausea's only do so much, so I'm going to have an arsenal of pretzels and water and zip lock baggies to throw up in all stuffed in my bag, and just be hoping and praying I wont have to use it! I'm only there from 9-12:35 this semester so hopefully I can do it!

As far as baby news, I'm about 14 1/2 weeks along, so into the second trimester! I have probably 5-6 more weeks of really feeling sick, and then it will start tapering off. I'm looking forward to that!

 I've lost almost 20 pounds and most days eat a few pretzels and a sip of juice. It's hard to keep my blood sugar up and not feel shaky and week, in fact Friday while the kids were at school I was throwing up in my bathroom and at some point must have passed out or something-I woke up 2 hours later on the floor of my bathroom sleeping! I stood up and got into my bed and slept for about another 2 until I needed to start getting ready to go pick them up from school!

I look like death in pick up line, the teachers look at me like, "you going to make it home okay?"...ha ha ha ha, maybe!

Next appointment is September 1st, so about 3 weeks, and then on the 22nd we get our big ultrasound!! Yea!! Jake keeps trying to convince the kids and I that we should let it be a surprise, but I don't think the kids and I are listening! ;-) We ALL want to know!!