It's worth it right?

Oh, I am so sick.

Not just sick, really sick.

Last night was the worst so far, for the most part I feel nauseated all day, maybe a few throw up sessions, but still holding it together-going to see friends & family-watching other friends kids-keeping up with my house...but oh last night!

Last night was as if I was dead and had been sent to hell. Yesterday morning/Early Afternoon I had been feeling just fine! And then 2pm hit, and I sat on the couch and turned a show on, I felt the dizziness and the nausea creeping in. Within an hour I was dying in the bathroom, my kids were running and covering their ears. I could hear them whispering about what mom was doing in the bathroom!

About 4:30 I texted Jake to tell him he would be making dinner, and he called me back and when I heard his voice I started to cry! Why? I don't know! Let's chalk that up to hormones! or maybe pain?

By that point my throat felt like I had torn it out, and stomped on it, put it in a blender and then tried shoving it back in. Sweet man that he is made me some cheesy potato's ( which is the only thing that sounded okay!) at like 9pm. I would keep the potato in my mouth as long as possible because it tasted good, and I knew as soon as I swallowed it would hurt and feel and taste like my food was burned!

I finally fell asleep on the couch last night, and rather than waking me up so I could feel nauseated again Jake let me stay sleeping. I actually slepped really well...but....when the kids woke me up this morning I felt the nausea rush in!

I went back to my bed and just layed there for a few hours while the kids took turns coming and talking to me.

I'm up, dishes are done, I've eaten some creamed corn and a mcd's style breakfast hashbrowns...my head is spinning, I've lost my cookies a few times today-but nothing like last night! Thank HEAVENS! I look like death, probably smell like it too.

There are art projects ala Mara all over my floor, and blanket forts ala Solomon cluttering my house. Eli is being sweet and understanding as I have made him my man servant "more ice water please".

This is all worth it right? I wanted another baby soooooooooooooooo bad. I can't even add enough "o"s! But I sure hate not feeling on top of things, and being bored and stuck in the house for fear of ralphing on someones floor or having to use a public toilet!

My kids are so stir crazy. I think I've already watched anything that looked remotely interesting off of "On Demand"...so I'm not sure what to do with all this free time spent lying on the couch being dizzy! Eli has already told me he is so bored he wishes he was in school.....LOL now that's bad!

Jake was saying I should use the time to write a blog about being pregnant....I think my description of my pregnancies may persuade people not to be pregnant. Maybe rather than a pregnancy blog I should write a blog for teen girls and the school systems can use it as birth control! It's working for Mara-she says she is never even getting married so then she doesn't have to have babies! oh boy.